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Saturday, December 3, 2011

the sad story in my life!!! :(:(

waaaaaaaaaaa..da 3 ari berturut2 nihh ak update blog..mcm xde keje je kan...hehehehe
padahal assigment belambak2 kena siapkan...mklm la da nk dkt final..tp,,,ak bt bodoh jer...ishh2..
ape nk jd nihh mira oi...sdr2 la..huhuhu...hurmm..actually ak update blog nihh pon sbb ak byk sgt cite yg nk dickp yg selama nihh ak pendam sorg2...sedihhh kan???xde sape pon yg blh ak kngsikan cite ak..eyhhhh..cilap,,tipu la lau ak ckp xde sape2 nk dgr cite ak,,actually ad jer senarnye...tp ak mls nk serabutkan kepala dyeowg dgr cite ak yg xseberape nihhh..hikhikhikhikhik...

haaaa..meh cni ak nk cite ckit...(wahhhhhh2,,mcm ape jer..hehe)...
senarnye kannn..ak nga cdih sgt skunk nihhh...hurmmmm...(ak nihh asyk cdih jer kan..ble la nk hepi blik???hehe...)common mira..dont be sad..(cewahhh..menaikan semangat sndri lak,,hehe)hurmmmmm..korg nk tao x nape ak cdihhh??msti nk tao kann..heheheheh..(perasan jer lbh ak nihh)hehehehe..hurmmmmmmmmmmmmmm...lets read the story..hehe


ak cdih cos ak rindu sgt2 kt daddy n mummy ak even ak bru jer blik kg minggu lps...hehehe..~al maklum la ank manje kann~..hehehe..ak mengaku tao ak mmg manje ngn dyeowng even selalu kena mara..~oppppsssssssssss..kantoi suda~..hehe..xde la selalu pon..kdg2 jer senanye..hehehhe..
okehhhhhhhhhh..kte blik pd asal ye...hurmmmm..ak blik kg mggu lps pon kjp jela..xsempat nk lps rindu ponn..ak blik pon cos U ak cti ari isnin tuhh,,lau x alamaknye bln 1 la ak blik cuti sem..lambat lagi tuhhh..mau ak menagis guling-guling kt U ak tuhhh..hehehehehe..


haaaa..actually cos nihh la ak selalu cdihh..tp story yg kt ats tuhh mmg btol un..sumpahh,,ak xtipu..hehe..hurmmm...ak sedih sgt sal ak memang rindu giler2 kt someone nihhhh...bak kate org rindu sampai xtao nk bt pape...(heheheh..lbh2 lak ak nih)..hurmmmm..tp btol la..ak rindu giler kot kt dye even ak da jpe dye ari tuhh..yela kan jupe as a frenzzz..mmg berbeza sgt lau jpe as boyfrenz...haaa...actually ak da clash ngn dye sbb tu la ak ckp camtu..tipu la lau ak ckp lgsg xhilang rindu tuhhh..at least kurang la ckit dri sblm nihhh..tp jupe as frenzz len sgt2 an..rase mcm kekok nk communicate ngn dye..yela...sape xrase kekok..dlu mse cple gune bhse len..skunk da gune ak ko jer...hehehe..standard la tuhh kan..da clash xkn nk gune bhs cple lg kot..huhuhu..


hurmmm..actually kan..ak nk mengaku la yg hati ak xpenah nk lepaskan dye even sesaat pon...ak xpenah berhenti utk mencintai n menyayangi dye even sesaat skli pon...(ishhhh..da start jiwang la nihh..hehe)
ak penah la jgk terime org len lam hidup ak after ak clash  ngn dye..tp x bertahan lame cos ak xleh nk pakse hati ak terime dye....hurmmm.ak rase xpyh la kot nk cite sal mamat tuhhh...(jahat x ak???)hurmm..ak xde niat pon nk men2 kan perasaan mamat tuhh,,tp hati ak xleh nk terime dye..ishhh..da la cite sal mamat tuhh..
da xde kena mengena pon...lets back to de main story..hurmmm...ak pon da xtao nk ckp mcm mne lg..even dye da ad pengganti ak skli pon ak still syg n love dye lg..ak tao ak xsepatutnye cinta kat dye lg,,tp ak tetap xleh nk hapuskan dye dri hidup ak..xslh kan korg lau ak still syg dye lg????:(:(:(


ak sedih sgt2 setiap kli ak terigtkan dye..dlu,,ak penah terfikir mcm mne la lau kteowg btol2 da clash...haaaa...skunk kteowg da pon btol2 clashh..bru la ak tao perasaan ak mcm mne..hurmmm..mse ak mule2 clash ngn dye uhhh,,,ak nangis guling2 kot..(uishhh..over giler)..tp tu lah kenyataannye..ak clash dye mse tuhh tyme ak ad kt umahh akak ak..1fmly ad kt cni temask la bapak sdre ak..tp mse tuhh ak xla nk smpai guling2..rmai kot..malu ak dibuat nye...ak just tahan jer sedih ak smpai la ak blik umah then tyme ak blik umah bru lah ak lps sumenye..tp kt dlm blik jela..ak xnk fmly ak tao yg ak nga sdih cos ak xnk fmly ak tgk ak sdihh..mase tuhh hanye TUHAN jer yg tao perasaan ak mcm mne..ak just mampu luah kt kwn baik ak nihh sorg jer..tu pon xsume ak ckp..ak pon xnk bebankan dye ngn mslh ak kan..ak ckp kt dye pon cos ak da xtao nk luah kt sape lg..hampir stiap hari kot ak nangis smpai brt badan ak turun mendadak...(haaa..ni xtpu eyhhh..cite btol tao)..seriusly brt badan ak turun giler kot smpai mama n papa ak tnye nape ak 6pk kurus..mane x nye..tyme tuhh ak mkn skli sehari je kot..tu pon lau ak rase nk mkn..lau x stu ari ak duk kt dlm blik..ape lg keje ak lau x menangis..hehee.(putus cinta la kte kan).biase la tuhhh..hurmmm..ad la 1 ari tuhh kan..mama tnye ak,,adik : nape mama tgk mata adik bengkak??...haaa....mase tuhh ak terpakse la berdalih ngn mama,,korg nk tao ak ckp pe,,hehehe,,,ni la ak ckp : eyhh..yeke ma??xperasan la plak adk..hurmmm..maybe adk xckup tido kot..hehehe..tu la alasan yg ak bg..dlm hati,,YA ALLAH ampunkan la dosaku krn tlh menipu mamaku..bkn niatku utk menipunye..tp ak terpakse melakukannye kerana ak xmahu mamaku risau tentangku..haaa..mase tuhh ak rase bersalah giler kot..tp nk bt mcm mne kan..mmg x la kan lau ak nk cite sume tuhh kt mama..hehehee..

dalam keadaan sdih pon ak terpakse melalui hari2 ak dgn pura2 hepi..yela kan..xkan ak nk tunjuk yg ak tgh frust giler2 mse tuhh kan..ak menangis setiap kli ak msk blik cos ak rase sunyi sgt2 ble kteowg da xcntct lg..
lps kteowg clash tuhh ak ad la jgk msg dye,,tp dye xlyn sgt la..ak msg dye cos ak mmg xleh nk terime kenyataan yg kteowg da clash mse tuhhh..tp ble ak da ok n blh terime kenyataan ckit ak da xmsg dye sgt da..ak just amik tao sal dye dr jaoh jer..ak xnk dye tao yg ak still care sal dye lg..tp ak just mampu bt tu sume dri jaoh jer..best frenz ak tuhh byk bg nasihat kt ak n tenang kan perasaan ak..thank to ZAKIAH cos da byk tlg ak tyme tuhh..hanya TUHAN je yg mampu bls kebaikan kamu..dye la stu2 nye kwn ak yg dpt kurangkan ckit kesedihan ak mse tuhh..lau xde dye tao la mcm mne..kwn2 ak yg len ad jgk ckp kt ak sombong tyme tuhh..mane tak nye asal dyeowg ajk kuar jer ak xnk..mcm2 alasan ak bg..maklum la tyme tuhh kan kteowg bru abis SPM..meranyap jela keje kteowng...tp tyme tuhh ak mmg xde mood nk kuar smpai la 1 ari tuhh ak kuar pegi jpe dyeowg..then dyeowg tnye ak,,asal ko kurus sgt wei skunk nihh????tu la soalan pertama yg kuar dri mulut dyeowg..haaaa..tyme tuhh..ak ckp la ak nga diet senarnye..hehehe(padahal lam hati kenyataannye len)..ak mls nk rosak kan hari kteowg nk enjoy..da la sblm nihh ak da bg byk alasan stiap kli dyeowg ajk kuar...ak kuar ari tuhh pon cos kwn baik ak yg ajk..lau x xde mknenye ak nk kuar.ag pon ak xnk dyeowg tao mslh ak....

hurmm..tyme dpt rslt SPM tuhh dye ad la jgk tnye ak kan dpt bpe..tp ak just ckp blh la ckit2..sekadar ckup2 mkn..ari tu la dye text ak stlh dkt 4bln kteowng clashh..tu pon text cos tnye sal rslt..tp ak xkesa la kan..at least dye still igt ak lg..tu pon da kire ckup baik..tp ak still lg dlm keadaan sdihh..nk2 tambah lak ngan rslt SPM ak yg x seberape sgt kan..makin sdih la ak dibuattnye..tp ak tao nihh ujian dariNYA...ak terima dgn hati yg tabah even seberat mne pon..

eyhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..da la..ak rase da byk kot yg ak membebel kt cni..da xlarat jari ak nk menekan keyboard nihhh..next time la plak ak sambung..hehehehhe..~waaa...da mcm essay da ak tgk...~ak bt essay dlu pon xpnjg mcm nihhh..hehehehehehe...6pak sgt ak mls nk menulis kan...hehe..(kantoi suda)..tp BM ak still dpt A pe..hehehe..eyhhh..da la..ape yg ak merapu nihhh..ishhhhh.....





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